Alrite, well today ladies and gentleman, I did something very out of the ordinary..for me..in any case. Well, I was watching the movie “Dear John” *yea i know i’m a guy watching a love movie, good thing is..i loved it.* Well while I was watching this movie..like the farther and farther it went the more and more it made me think of my wife. That movie made me just stare out into space just gazing..day dreaming..of what I will be able to have with her, the moments of us snuggling, the passionate times and the sweet times, the times were we just goof off and do things that regular people would do, the times were she..or I..would wanna do something..and we do it..just to be with each other.
Well, the moral of this is that. I want these things so bad, I want to be with her, and soon it will come true because her parents have given me *they have actually said..to my face..that I am able to come up there and live with her, be with her.* Now me and my wife have been talking, skyping, whatever you wanna say for 3 and a half years now. She is the most precious girl in my life and nothing or noone is going to change that. I would go through hell and back and back again for this girl. Just to see her smile. Now me and her have had our rough spots yes, we’ve been on brakes and she went out with a guy while we were still talking but nothing changed and thats the thing that kept giving me hope, the thing that kept me alive and breathing, I will admit that I was in pain and that it was agonizing, but it made her happy and thats all I wanted. Ha I always told her that I’d be there holding her hand behind the guys back because I wanted to be with her so bad.
Eventually we got back togethor and to this day have not went on a single break *now believe you..me I wouldn’t want that happening anytime* and I’ve thanked god every day for that blessing because its always hard for me. I will admit the past few days me and her have been arguing on and off a little bit and having rough times. and I just want her to know that no matter what the trouble or fight or whatever, I will always be here for her. Even if she decided to have nothing to do with me anymore I would still send her the occasional message saying “hey how you doing?” or something like that or come over to her house and say hi.
Baby, I want you to know that you mean more than heaven itself to me, not all the angels in heaven or on earth could compare to you or what you mean to me. I know your asleep right now cuz you wanted to take a nap, and I’m sittin here goin back on what I said to write you this and kinda sittin here tearin up from how much I love you and pouring my heart out to you.
I just want you to know that I know this is hard and believe me I do know cuz seeing everyone thats a couple or seeing a movie that has some kind of couple in it always makes me jealous as anything, but we’ve been waiting for 3 and a half years and I will tell you that these have been the best 3 and a half years of my life just because I met the one girl that changed my life around. I just want you to know that when I get there no matter what the trouble is or what hell I have to go through to get there I will get there to you and that I swear to you, and I will try my hardest to give you everything that you want, every sweet dream that you’ve ever had, and every thing that you have always ever deserved. I try and work my ass off to give you the best I can right now and I know that sometimes it whiplashes back on to me and we end up having a bad time, but I try and give you all the good times that I can baby, I try and give you all the good times that my heart, soul, body, and mind can give…….because your the only one worth trying for to me.